then chances are, they have this pre-conceived mindset that everyone is more or less like them.

But no, we all know that people come in all shapes and sizes, rich and poor.

When they naively think you are living as good as them, you have no choice but to play along and pretend you do. Then you feel all sucky about it, and may even start to despise yourself for trying to pretend to be something you are not.

It's a vicious cycle of course, when one lie leads to another, and you are forced time and time again to live up to that non-existent lie to begin with.

And that's how we feel horrible about life, about life at a tender age of 20, sadly.

Why are we not doing as well as others?

Why despite so much effort that I put in, I can never close up that gap?

Why people had it all so easy and I have to try so hard?

Why do I have to work my guts out and some people had their fortune fall from the sky?

Isn't it all too miserable to compare and compare and compare.

But we cannot help it. We live in a dense world where "I am you think what I am"-Cooley

Too bad.

That's why people grow all so judgemental, cos since we are judged all the time, it only makes it fair that we have our share of judging people too.

So we judge judge and judge.

and sadly, I have become one of those. The more you know you are being judged, the more you judge others.

Life.

Where meeting one another is a form of affinity already,

yet, we judge each other, and feel jealous about one another.

People get together, but not happy together.

Sounds ridiculous, but isnt that what we do all the time?

Stop me, I think my rambling can go on and on, like some self indulgent verbal vomit with no substantial content.

Sorry for wasting a few seconds of your life if your eyes already traveled here.

No choice, I dont know where to pour my thoughts except here cos writing with pen and paper isnt all too environmentally friendly.

Wells, happy new year 2012.

This verbal vomit will be continued.